Tuesday, June 28, 2005

The Pit

I made a visit to "the Pit" last night, but it was short-lived. I realized I no longer take the "death spiral" down to the pit. I've carved myself a neat little staircase so I can ease my way into it. The good thing about it is, that I can also walk myself out when I get tired of being there. I take this trip of self-condemnation every time I visit. I finally realized I didn't need to be there and went back to bed. This morning I read this:
Psalm 139 7-16, 23-24
Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.
If I take the wings of the morning,
And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
Even there Your hand shall lead me,
And Your right hand shall hold me.
If I say, "Surely the darkness shall fall on me,"
Even the night shall be light about me;
Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You,
But the night shines as the day;
The darkness and the light are both alike to You.
For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written...

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting.

God knew me from the womb. He made me; I am His creation, the works of his hands. What do I need to fear, and why do I need to have anxieties?


Lisa said...

I think the key words are "I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;"

If we hate ourselves, then we are condemning what God has created. For if He completely created us, then He created our anxieties as well. There must be a purpose for that emotion, I just haven't found it yet.

Lisa said...

Paul- I hope I didn't sound too righteous in that last comment. I'm new to blogging, and writing is not one of my gifts. Thank you for the passage- it made for a great place to start my reading for today.

Pauly said...

No way...your comments are always welcome.

Life is better blonde said...

Pauly, I totally needed to read that today. Thanks for sharing it and allowing God to use you.

Pauly said...

thanks, lissy, it's good to get feedback. Sometimes I wonder if I am really having an impact.